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wowww its amazing how not much has really changed since my last entry lol
well welcome to junior year. its as hard as i thought it was gonna be, even harder. taking chemistry, it sucks lol im no good at it at all. Christmas just came. I got a ipod touch and a new kathy bag :)) I also got a build a bear from Bryan <3 and I love it LOL I'm writing this entry on my iPod touch because it has Internet :) this thing is soooo amazinggg anyway this year has been good all together. okay I'm pretty much done writing on this thinggg I'm gonna continue playing with my toys LOL peaceeeee
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[August 13 2008] |
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okay here is the new stuff
1. finally got my license!!! getting a car on friday.
2. have a new boyfriend been going out for almost 3 months. honestly im in love i want to marry him he is so perfect for me it isnt even funny. his name is bryan rolando parra <3333 and im in total love, even more than i was with garrett believe it or not!!! =]] he got me a promise ring and he is in love with me too =]]] <333 omgggggg =]]]]
3. nic is an ass he dumped me for his ex, we never officially went out or anything but still, ouch that one hurt... went to a party with him and bourna and kare a few weeks ago and he tried hitting on me again, he can be real sweet at times but im in love with someone elsee, sorry nic you had your chance. he can go off and on with shannon grace all he wants she is the dumb girl being played by him. one too many times for me.
4. me and joey dont talk anymore got in a fight he apoligized a few weeks ago but havent talked since.
5. DEFITINALY dont miss brandon anymore, weirdo.
6.missing creek =////
7. karen and ashleigh are coming down for victors party on saturdayy cant waittt!!
8. summer was crazy and fun!!
9. school starts monday, ew =/
10. got my ass a jobbbb, pays good =]]
11. karianne and me are actually having some problems believe it or not. kinda weird. hopefully its a phase.
12. me and garrett are exactly the same as before. but this time i have no feelings for him.
13. bryan is in germany =// he left yesterday for 2 weeks and im missing him sooooooooo much you have no idea. i just want him to come homeee!!!
thats it really for nowww. gonna be driving around come fridayyyy!!!! party saturday, shopping with susan (bryans sister) sunday and school monday. =]]]]]]
ashley and bryan, may 16, 2008 ♥ im so in love. <3
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[May 4 2008] |
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wow well i havent updated in a while. lifes been good and bad latley so heres the scoop:
1. i moved to plantation 2 months ago :D i love it here i go to south now :D and i love the school.
2.me and brandon broke up about a month ago but we still talk everyday and believe it or not i kinda miss him as a boyfriend.
3. i fell for this guy nic fullerton like really fell for him a couple weeks ago. he told me he liked me and wanted to be with me and i was all excited because i havent liked a guy this much since garrett. well it turns out he is in love wih shannon and he chose her over me so i was left hurt.
4. joey: cool guy, hooked up but no spark really another brandon situation. i stopped hooking up with him when i met nic, he got mad at me because him and nic are friends and he went out with his ex savannah, he broke up with her and is now trying to hook up with me again but tried to go too far with me.
5. me and karen are friends again, we went to spring bling (a trip to orlando) together and had a blast and she came down last weekend and we hung out :D happy about thatt <33
6. one of my friends actually got pregnant, wow. enough said.
7. actually didnt make the sphs varsity cheerleading squad =[ my life is offically over.
8. garrett and me dont even talk anymore, he hates me for some reason and now we fight everytime were together which is a lot, but karianne and victor think he still likes me for some reason so i came up with a theory that hes mean to me because he wants to try not to like me but he actually does. or im hoping that anyway lol if only he wouldnt be so stoubbrn and just tell me how he feels....hes complicated.
9. my new guy best friends are offically bourna and victor =]]] we became really close over the past 2 months.
10. met a girl victoria, kinda a bad influence i thinkk... grades are slipping and stuff...not good.
10. when i went to monarch i thought waking up at 6:00 was bad, now i wake up at fucking 5:00!!!! =/// thats HORRIBLE.
and thats it on my life so far, unless i forgot anything. yeah a lot of drama, ups and downs but i defitinaly like it here better. i just wish i still had 4 classes and woke up at 6 =// oh well not everything can be perfect lol. thats the life. summers just about here cant wait for that =]]]]
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[January 18 2008] |
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for all of you people who still read my liveournal i have AMAZING NEWS:
IM MOVING TO PLANTATION!!
my dad sold our house and is now looking in plantation!! woohoooooo babyyyyy lol im SO excited but at the same time i dont wanna leave brandon=// but anyways yeah my dad told me last night when we went out to dinner i was so SHOCKEDDD but excited at the same time, i couldnt even eat!! hahaha =DDD the only thing is brandon =/// were still gonna be together but its gonna be hard until he gets a car. =// anyways watching hairspray and thinking about the big moveeeee =DDD yayyyy it will most likley be in like late febuary-early march.
K BYEEEEEEEEE
oh and someone help me decide between plantation high and south.
k byeeeeeeeeee!
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| WINTER BREAK 2007/2008! |
[January 6 2008] |
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first week was kinda gay i didnt do anything and new years this year sucked big time! but the second week was AMAZINGGG
wednesday
went to sawgrass mall with greg and andrew and karianne ate at cheeburger cheeburger and then attempted to have a bonfire but we didnt have lighter fluid
thursday
went out to dinner at Fridays with lauren and karianne and then went to gregs and slept over kariannes
friday
went out to IHOP for breakfast with karianne then went to ryans house to watch the big zoey 101 movie and then actually had the bonfire with yummy smores =] lol then we went to andrews house and watched some of superbad then karianne slept over
saturday
jons bday party then bowling with brandon and family
sunday
went to brandons
now
time to get back to school =/
time for annoying teachers and not paying attention in class.
time for getting up at the crack of dawn to stand at the stupid bus stop
and time for fake friends schedule changes and cheerleading.
oh joy.
over all christmas break 07/08 was good =D
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[December 28 2007] |
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well my faveorite time of year came and went.
it was amazing i must say!
got a new digital camera (which im obsessed with!)
tiffany jewelery
some mulaaaa
and a couple other thingsss =DDD
i got my snowglobe from brandon and its absolutly AMAZING!! i love it =DD
ahh feels good to get a break from cheerleading and school and drama
but im like dieing of boredom here in creek with absolutly nothing to do!
i cant wait to go back to plantation for the rest of the break because all im doing is sitting here and watching tv ALL day long
brandons in the keys =// hes coming back tomorrow but i wont see him until new years eve and hes spending the night =DDDD im excited for that oneeee
he wants to kiss me when the ball drops =// i told him no.
im really sorry but thats me and garretts thing he did that last year to me and it was our first kiss and everything, im not gonna loose that memory sorry. =//////
todays 4 months!! woohoooooo =DDD
i realize that ive REALLY fallen for this boy like a lot.
and i cant believe i almost gave him up. =/
anyways;
i havent updated in a while so yeah nothing else really going on besides all that.
updates soon to come!! PEACEEE<333
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[November 19 2007] |
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is slowly getting back on track, little by little.
cheerleadings kinda pissing me off but whateves.
they broke upp. i kinda feel bad for her though=//
but im still not gonna be her friend.
aunt lisa and uncle joe were just here, and i miss them already =//
thanksgiving is thursday!!! after dinner me,ashleigh, and gloria are going to the broward county fair!! yayy lol
anyways nothing else really going onnn
except my faveorite time of year is just about here! lols
PEACEE!!
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| NO LONGER |
[November 12 2007] |
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we are no longer friends.
i cant believe the odasity of you.
how much of a backstabber can you possibly be?
you were there through everything, the break up the ask out. EVERYTHING
and now your going out.
great job:]
congratulations.
im glad to know that you pick a guy over our friendship
im glad im that important to you.
and im glad to know that our friendship can withstand anything.
i hope the 2 of you are happy, i really truly do
because otherwise your gonna feel really stupid picking him over me.
but anyways
ever happiness to you both.
i hope you last a long time and he makes you as happy as he made me </3
screw life.
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| LiFE RiGHT NOW... |
[November 9 2007] |
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is a little rough.
im finding out how fake people really are. and its dissapointing.
all of the people who i though were my real friends and who i thought were always gonna be there for me, couldnt give two shits now.
its hard
trying to please everyone and yourself
and not knowing what you want.
being a teenager is hard.
and when everyone lets you down i know im the luckiest girl in the world to have a best friend like mine.
karianne lynne payton
is my best friend.
when the whole world comes crashing down on me,
shes there to be with me and pick up the pieces with me.
lifes rough.
if it wasnt for cheerleading right now id be breaking down a lot quicker than iam now.
im still breaking down, just not as fast.
idk what to do with my life, my friends, and me.
its getting harder and harder each day.
nothing has ever been this hard b4,
ive always had the perfect balance when it comes to school, cheerleading, and social life.
now, not so much.
when the whole world seems like its turing on you, what are you to do?
advice?
im breaking apart piece by piece.
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[November 3 2007] |
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ughhh
lifes been a wild ride these last couple of weeks.
and its been riding all down hill..
one of my "best friends" has just totally stabbed me in the back
and she doesnt even have the slightest sympathy for me.
my used to be 2 amazing worlds collided recently and now are 2 horrible worlds.
people from creek and plantation are meshing and its weird because not only are they meshing.. there leaving me out.
my best friends from plantation, the people i grew up with are now ditching me to get a little action from the creek girls.
its just weird.
there hiding it from me and everytime i txt one of them they blow me off or get all scared and are like "omg ashley just texted me!" like its some big secret.
my life last year was perfect, and now i dont know what to do with myself.
i feel like the only person i can trust on this earth is karianne.
even bourna, my bro has been blowing me off.
i cant take it anymore
i feel like im gonna break down.
i have to go to school everyday and put a big fake smile on and pretend to like the people im with, when in all reality i wanna hit one of them and i cant even trust the others.
my life is a shambels right now.
and i dont know what to do.
i dont wanna be her friend but i have to be.
friends dont hurt friends and then give them a big hug and say "i would never hurt you" and then go do the one thing thats absolutly killing me inside.
i really hope my life picks itself up soon, because im sick of pretending everyday. pretending like im happy when i really just wanna scream, break down, hit someone, and cry. im over pretending.
advice anyone? cuz right now im so lost its not even funny.
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[October 16 2007] |
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ok so today was the "big" day.
it was supposed to be the happiest day of my life.
funny how things change.
funny how people break your heart.
but whats even more funny is that no matter what, you still love them and care for them the same way you did a year ago, even though your just friends.
things change and people move on i guess
now its been a year.
and its finally time for me to move on.
to finally let go of everything thats been going on for the past year.
all of my feelings are being put aside.
and im gonna be just friends.
today was a sad day, but also a realization day
that its time to let go.
yeah we went out for 8 months and today was supposed to be a year.
its offically time to let go.
yes i still love him and probably always will, being that hes touched my heart in so many ways and has made the hugest impact on my life.
so this is it, the 1 year mark.
glad we made it=/
i love you.
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| LATLEY |
[October 11 2007] |
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latley lifes been hectic
between cheerleading and homework and spending time with brandon
ive had like no time to myself!
its crazy.
anyway lifes been going kinda good besides it being so hectic.
my sweet sixteen was amazing and so was homecoming :]]
and this saturday im going to a hockey game with brandon :]]
were becoming really close in our relatationship almost 2 months already!
the only thing is we fight a lot and it gets kinda annoying =/
i guess you cant always have a relatationship like me and garrett had with no fighting for 6 months. oh well.
next week is our last football game of the season.
we better win!
then competition season and basketball season start
so thats even more cheerleading going on
but i love it :]
me and garrett are finally close again which is good.
were good friends :]
things with me and karen are a little rough, we have our good days and our bad days but hey i guess thats what happens when your really close to her.
me and pri are finally becoming really close which is cool :]]] i love her.
me and bourna couldnt be better as usual :]
hes the only one of my friends who hasnt stabbed me in the back in some way somehow lol
angelo: my italian papi.....
hes really cute and great but he seems like such a player and that he only wants to "get with me" which is kinda weird
but he claims he likes me a lot and wants to be with me even though he has a girlfriend and has had one for the past year and a half but whateves hes sweet and italian :] actually from italy lmao how cool is that??
anyway thats the big update, nothing else really going on latley i barley have time for anything else to happen lol
imma go ttyl!
ASHLEY AND BRANDON 8.28.07<3
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[September 25 2007] |
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the best birthday ever!!
i went to school and got balloons from pri and
and pretty bracelet from brandon :]]
then i went to cheerleading flew my basket whoo hoo!!
came home, ate dinner and sat down on my fat ass and went on myspace :]
then i was wondering why we were waiting so long to eat my cake lol
then my stepmom comes running in my room GO SEE WHOES AT THE DOOR!!!
so i go rushing out of my room and its brandon and his family :]]
they came over to suprise me and eat cake with me on my birthday
and he actually kept it a secret! haha im so proud!
anyway i had the hugest smile on my face the whole time they were here :]]
so yeah best bday ever!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEE:]]]]
$W33T $iXT33N!<3
ASHLEY AND BRANDON 8.28.07<3
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| FiRST DAY OF SCHOOL |
[August 20 2007] |
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FiRST DAY SOPHOMORE YEAR
first period = spanish 2, class looks alright. no ppl i know though =/
second period= geometry CLASS WITH ASHLEIGHH!! fun fun fun! class looks hard though lol and the teacher looks str8. but u really cnt txt in that class which sucks =/
LUNCH! i have lunch with everyone! execpt ashleigh. fun lunch!
third period= reading class with sam =]]] teachers CRAZY! imma pass that class with flying colors! its so easy lmao.
fourth period= bio1. class looks hard. class with glo, pri, jesselyn and other ppl i know. class looks okay but kinda tough lol.
its gonna be hard this year without my personal tutor =/
and things are defitinaly gonna be different this year.
im kinda excited but at the same time kinda scared.
anyway talking online and listening to music.
ill update later.
PEACEE!!
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[August 19 2007] |
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SUMMER 2007
its been a crazy ride.
i lost someone i love
got closer to some people
made money
went to parties
hung out with friends
and i changed a lot
now its over
time for teachers, homework, projects and fake people
oh joy.
i dont wanna go back to school
hard classes this year.
and im gonna need help but no more homework helper=/
no more morning calls
a lot is gonna change this year
and im just not ready
oh well i guess i just gotta grow up and move on
anyway getting ready for tomorrow
my goal for this year is to dress nicer and care about how i look
cuz i have ppl to impress now.
ok well imma go.
btw. victors party was awesome!
k peace!
sophomore year starts tomorrow!
monarch high class of 2010!!!
NO MORE FRESHMANNNN!!!!
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| BOYS BOYS BOYS. |
[August 8 2007] |
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ugh ive only been single for a month and a half and ALREADY i have boy drama. =//. i liked being tied down to just one guy for 8 months cuz i had no drama with multiple guys. but whatever. idk what im gonna do!
i just got a fone call from a friend in need.
i really hope there okay and they dont take the break up as hard as im taking mine.
she dosent deserve that, shes so much better than that.
shes sitting there telling me that she cnt be friends with someone she was never really friends with.
SEE IM NOT CRAZY!. you cant.
"if two past lovers can remain friends they either were never in love or still are" thats what i believe, but no one listens to me until it happens to them.
boys are stupid.
and all it takes is one boy to take your entire beliefs away.
people ask why i dont wish on 11:11 nemore and i tell them because i dont believe in it anymore, and everyone looks at me like im weird.
i sit there and read peoples who i'd like to meets and read "i want thr perfect guy" and i laugh and say he dosent exist. at least he dosent stick around.
ive lost my spirit and people think im crazy but it will happen to you too.
as one friend is realizing now.
so for all you people who think im insane and taking this "too hard"
ive learned from expirence, it hurts like hell to loose someone you truly care about.
so take my words and use them wisely i promise i know what im talking about. ;]
KTHANKSBYE
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[July 29 2007] |
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today was fun :]
mommy picked me up
we went for lunch and then shopping at the boca mall :]]
BOURNBABY WAS THEREEE :]]]]
im happy i finally saw him!!!
hahaha my brother got the same hair cut as him and my mommy called him a hair model lmaoooo.
he helped my bro shop.
then he left=//
I LOVE HIMMM
hes my bestest bro in the whole worlddd lol:]]]]
kay bye!
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[July 27 2007] |
i dont know why people do stupid shit.
its not cool or funny.
its actually pretty stupid and makes me not wanna look up to or anything.
you have EVERYTHING going for you.
and your wasting it by doing stupid shit.
your smart and i would think that you have more common sence in ur head not to do this shit.
but no.
i dont know why your doing it.
and i really dont understand it.
your gonna end up ruining your life over this.
and it hurts me to know that, because i still care.
and idc what you say, its stupid and defitinaly not you.
you've changed, big time.
the old person i knew would have never even thought of even doing this shit.
people suprise me :/
if your reading this. concider my words. i only care.
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| OH SWEET HEARTBREAK |
[July 26 2007] |
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"ive never had a dream come true, till the day that i found you, even though i pretend that ive moved on you will always be my baby. i never found the words to say, that your the one i think about each day, and i know no matter where life takes me too, apart of me will always be with you.
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| iN NORTH CAROLiNA |
[July 25 2007] |
north carolina is AMAZINGGG
i love it here!!!!!!
the cabin is beautiful!
and the mountians are breath taking.
i went to dollywood again that was funn =]
me and sam went on this ride and this old guy mooned us lol
and then we went white water rafting. that was the expirence of a life time!
i had so much fun doing that.
i jumped off a cliff into the water and swong off a rope into the water too.
i loved it that was literally one of the best days of my life.
yesterday we went to grandfather mountian and it was okay i guess.
it started raining.
today we went horse back riding and the guide was a HOTTIEEE :]]]
his name was jake.
tomorrow might be nashville :]]]
country music hall of fame bby!!!
but not sure yet.
anyway.
this vacation is the best vacation of my life i think!
im watching boy meets world in the cabin now :]
babysitting the kids with sam while the adults are at some winery.
okay gonna go now
PEACEEEE!!!!!!!!!
im still in loveeeeeeeee =///
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